Emotional Wounds

Sometimes it is better to let go of some people from your life, to help them understand your value and importance in the future!!

Its very difficult to erase the pain of emotional wounds from mind, some times it is very difficult to forgive someone who has hurt you, but then try to discover completely new ways to divert your attention or bring some new spirit in yourself. It works...infact I believe it always works, but sometimes it works very well and sometimes the result is "Just OK" but it will never fail.

I always believe in this statement - “Time will Heal” but keeping wounds is like storing food in the freezer, in hours the food will be frozen but when we take that frozen food out of the freezer, in minutes it will be back to its form. We need time and space to heal our pain. We should give our self times to fall, cry, and when our power get recollect, it will be our reward. Don’t suppress your emotional wounds, instead take it out by crying and it will be all over by time surpassing each day into months and years.

I am trying to heal my emotional wounds, its not an easy task (i know), as I already mentioned it that you have to divert your attention from constantly thinking about those good moments of life instead of bad moments, but whatever you do, the footprints of wounds remain there.

That’s life and I assume these wounds will let me grow emotionally strong!!!

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sHeHzU

Losing Myself !!!

I am confused...I don't know what has happened to me. I really want to know why it is happening to me? Why I have started hating this world, the people, my friends, myself… I’m scared of losing myself to the hatred, the jealousy, the enmity that’s taken root in me without my knowledge. It’s eating me up, my soul. This hatred….. I can’t find a suitable word for my feeling. I feel lost. I feel lonely.

There was a time when I was carefree, friendly, lovely. I lived in a world where I felt I was Complete, where my dreams were not just a figment of my imagination but my essence of living, my hope for a better, even lovelier world. Where I dreamt of meeting my princess and then we would have lived happily ever after. The happiness spread out from me was so infectious that people couldn’t help but get attracted towards me. I believed in everyone, even those who committed mistakes. There’s hope, I felt. Not everything was lost. Life can be lived again, rightfully this time.

Then why am I losing myself now? Why am I so mean and cruel and…and...bad? Why? Why do I find the wrong in everything and everyone? Why does a suggestion or advice given by a friend feel like a taunt, a punishment for my failure? Why do I feel so insecure everytime? As if everyone’s just playing games with me, with my feelings.

I have become cynical, embittered, suspicious. People, according to me, can only be described in three words – Liars, Selfish & Crooked!

Trust, purity of heart, belief in dreams, friendship, love – why do they suddenly not exist? Am I becoming a monster???

I want to run away from myself. I feel like I’m possessed, possessed by the most horrifying, disturbing and self-destroying thoughts which were locked deep, deep down in my head. Which, until now, I didn’t even know existed. It feels as if the lock has been opened and the key is lost. It feels irreversible. Like this thoughts cannot be locked again.

I want to find myself again. The happy me. I want to love again, to hope again, to trust again, to dream again. I want to live again. I just want to get rid of this hatred.

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

Sad Distances

Unexpressable Feelings

In Fond Memories

We chatted every day. We shared secrets with each other. We got close to each other in such a short span of time that life without her seems impossible. Incomplete. Like I’m missing something or nothing seems right when I don’t chat with her one day. I thought she was my rebound. That thought sure disturbed me but I pushed it in the darkest part of my head and expected it to rust and die there. I’ve been doing this for quite some time now.

So easy and problem-free life becomes when you don’t have negative thought looming inside your head all day! But now we don’t chat so frequently and I don’t feel as restless about not talking to her as I used to before. She doesn’t need me as much as she used to before, too. Maybe, she was my rebound. And I was her. And now that we’ve helped each other and cured our problems, we don’t need *us* anymore. I thought, during the post-Relation phase, that one more goodbye and I’ll be shattered. 

Complicated Love

It all seems so funny-confusing-funny now...right???

No, we haven’t ceased contact totally. But it seems strained. Like, I have to do it because that’s the way it has always been and because I don’t wanna hurt her or I don’t wanna be the one to step back. It feels like a duty or a compulsion. I don’t get the feeling to do it from the heart. She’s helped me in many ways. She’s helped me heal, helped me get my pre-Relation confidence and attitude back and most of all, made me believe that loving again and trusting again won’t hurt.

Yeah, I’m not the “Devdas” that I was back then anymore. I’ve learnt (what I’ve known always) that you can’t give up on love and hope and happiness and trust just because it backfired with one person. However important she may have been! There’s a new life waiting out there for you. A new someone. And she just helped me gain that belief back. And now, I see her slipping out of my life. Just like water trickling down my hands as I stand in my shower and think about all this and WONDER!

What was this God? 

So fast? Rebound? Hope? Trust? Love? Her? Me? Us? Relation? 

Why? Why? Why?

So many questions. Never a satisfactory answer!

How do U expect me to trust you when you play with my life like it’s some stupid adventure game. I want to trust you. Just show me how. And also WHY!

I’m waiting. Desperately.

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sHeHzU

The Search for Myself

Every day life keeps on moving & changing. Its kind of weird how things work around me, in fact I myself make them worse most of the times. I make things fine just to make them worse again.

Sometimes, I feel I'm weird, I'm crappy, I'm hot tempered, I get angry on silly little things, I expect a lot...from you, from myself, from my friends, when I know I shouldn't...

People say that I'm "Too Demanding" but don't they know what I go through? I have made myself what I am, and as days keep on passing I know I'll become worse, I'll become cold...I'll become heartless...

It's weird that I don't feel the burns, I don't feel the pain when I put salt on my cuts, I don't feel the need of people being with me, I don't feel the urge to talk to anyone anymore and as days pass I am becoming more indifferent.

It's like the only thing matters to me is EXISTING...

Existing, this word has been attached to me for very long... I don't know what it means to me but yes all what matters is existing even if its without feeling anyone.

How can someone so emotional, so happening, full of life like me become so cold? That is the question I ask myself a lot, but maybe sumday I will get to know the answer...Maybe !!!

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sHeHzU

Being Happy !!!

A famous quote :-  

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."

I know lots of people including me who when asked if they think that they are happy with the things happening in their life.. be it with career wise or in their relationships.. the standard response will be not exactly but I wish or think it will be better..

All of us are trying to chase behind the dream where all our lifes are perfect.. where we don't seem to have any problems in our life.

Just wishing that getting a promotion at work or getting the latest model cellphone or getting self owned house will automatically make us happy. We just don't realise that once that dream or ambition is fulfilled we automatically replace it with something else. Something much more bigger and much more important or atleast we feel is important to us at that particular point in our lives.

Which thus makes us forget what are the things that genuinely makes us feel happy.. really happy about one self.

I have made a small compilations of quotes that I found on the web.. and thought will share them here..

"Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have."

 

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."

 

"There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will."

 

"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."

Now what ever said and done.. reading this post and going through the quotes.. end of it all.. its all down to our mind state.. and that's something that we choose to do.. I am choosing to be happy let what ever it may be.. what about You???

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

Happy Valentine's Day

 

She Loves me...She Loves me not...

 

He Loves me...He Loves me not...

 

Enough of contemplations! It’s time to make your move. This valentine pour your heart out. Gifts, cards, poems, and above all your love are bound to touch the heart of your lover.

 

 Valentine's Day is a special day to celebrate the most beautiful emotion on this universe called Love. This is the best time when you can express your deep love and affection with different creative ideas and make the day memorable for that special one. Some unspoken words in the form of valentine's day greeting cards or love quotes can do magic in your love life.

Celebrate the spirit of love and togetherness with a special message in the form of love poems or romantic valentine sayings. Your mind might be cluttered now with thoughts about various valentine's gift ideas to impress her/him.

 

 

For Valentine Gift Ideas for boyfriend or Valentines Day Gifts for him, you can select his favorite gadget and for gifts for girlfriend you can buy Chocolates or Flowers. To spend quality time with your partner you can try many romantic ideas from a romantic dinner to watching a romantic movie. So, Open your heart and express your emotions on this Valentine's Day if you haven’t....

Happy Valentine Day to all who believe in Love.

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

A Loner !!!

I feel lonely and sad most of the time, even when I am surrounded by friends everyday. When I walk home alone, I can’t help but keep feeling depress. (I have a very tough ego) Sometimes, I feel that I can just disappear in this world, and no one will really give a crap about me.

I feel lonely all the time, and the persons I want to talk with, are busy. Everyone has a favourite person, I wish there would be someone who would be so revolted if the person was mine, and I wanted to talk to that person when I was feeling down?  I want to talk to that person, and feel better, because I know that person would always try to make me feel better and appreciated.

Why do I want that person now though?
I was doing so good and now, my emotions are all weird, and I can't calm down.

Is it a comfort thing? Are you my comfort person? 
I think you are !!!

I wish I had a comfort that would secure me so completely, that I would never feel as though I had to disturb this one person. It's been a bit, why haven't I gained a new comfort in someone else?

Why is it that I myself seems to have rested itself on this one person, and still loves and wants this person around, even though they brought to me so much heartache?

I'm not in love with the comforter, it's more like I like their company and conversation so much, I want it around me. And now that I am not in a good place, I want this comfort now, right now :( now now now, make me feel better, because I feel sad and I want you to make me feel happy because you have that ability of cheering me up.

Do you see how I take a simple concept and sort of put it into complicated words?  
It's good to be me  -_-

So, then I wonder, will I get a new comforter? 

Something nice that makes me feel ok?  

I dunno.

I want one, I want to stop harassing someone who is already swamped with stuff. I want someone for me, who will take me on and comfort me. I know it's stupid to leave my happiness in the hands of others, but controlling your life takes work, and I am not ready to work for it yet. I rather wait for someone to bring me joy.

This is why I need someone special in my life :(

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sHeHzU

Undefined Emotions

I really don't know how to put whatever I m feeling into words !!! My feelings have stopped making any sense wotsoever. I'm trying to be all strong n controlled but I'm like a thread away from falling apart.....totally.

Everything I do, Everything I like, Everything I desire seems meaningless, unwanted, stupid!!! I have this surge of emotions waiting to burst out, only waiting for a suitable vent!!!

I don't know when my life became so complicated. I don't know when walls were made inside my hearts. I'm not a superhuman, I'm a simple guy with high hopes, undaunting love n loads n loads of questions???

I don't have a glossary to life but I'm still looking for answers, I'm still sitting everyday for the exam which my life keep preparing for me !!!

All I want is your trust in me, Your words - It is alrite if I'm not perfect, that I can be wrong n stupid too!!! It only makes me human !!!

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

W-H-Y ???

I don't know why I feel like this. It's almost like I follow sorrow around sometimes....or is it sorrow following me around!!!!

Why is it that sometimes you have all the answers with you but no solution seems to come around?

Why would there be such a chaos of thoughts and reasons where just a Yes or No would suffice?

I m what I am and I m finally getting to what I am. What if knowing myself, carving out myself requires some unwanted decisions???

Does it mean I should stop and not do it for the fear that my family, friends & well-wishers would think that I have lost my sense of judgment?

We all have failed some tests in life, but it has only helped us to know what to do n what not to do... Hasn't it?

Why should I be questioned by others for subjecting my life to difficulties, when I know these very difficulties are the lessons of my life. And every decision I make is the test I give for learning that lesson. It's my Life, I m my own teacher, my own student. All I need you to do is to never let me stop learning.

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

Relationship !!!

Get Connected

 I believe I'm totally screwd up these days!!!! And I have realised I just feel depressed with one or two spurts of joy here n there....but my life remains stagnant!!!

"I  guess when you are young you just believe there will be many people with whom you will connect. Later in life you realize it happens only a few times."

I feel thats so true..and when you meet someone you feel you have a connection with its worth doing everything you can to keep in touch. Even if it means a one sided effort, its still worth it. Because eventually the other person too begins to feel the connection and responds.

Then again, there is a difference between a one sided effort and obsession. The former enriches your life & latter destroys you completely. It's important to make the distinction and draw the fine line.

And once you correctly make that distinction, you have mastered the art of relationships!!!

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

Little Things You Do

I had no other reason to post it than just, that i have been humming it all day long and even now it has become one continuous voice in my head...

The Little things you do for me..
n nobody else make me feel Good....
Little things you do for me...
Making me smile n no one else could...!
That's why i like to sit next to you....,
and Hear your mad stories, i know they're not true..
and i like that we share a secret or two ......Together....!
Little things you do for me..

 

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

The Art of Disconnecting

 

I just came to realize that I have a useful ability to get disconnected from the world quite frequently, and at most times, without me even realizing it. I believe in talking and conveying my point of view. But I also believe you should say what's on your mind before it's too late, you might not get a chance to say it later, so better say it now than feel sorry later!!!

But then, I think I'm a bundle of contradictions. I believe in talking without saying, saying without talking. Things that are the hard to say and usually the most important, so learn to talk about it. Half our problems would be solved if only we improve ourselves in the communication department. I just have one question to all my blog followers....

When did you had your last best conversation with someone?

 

If you ask me this question...My last best conversation?

I always have my best conversation with my Best Friend Forever (Shabbir) over a cup of tea where we share & discuss all are life problems & try to find out solution for them.

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sHeHzU

Life after Death

Life after Death

Yesterday I went to a Friend's dad funeral. I was wondering what would be life after death. 

Is There Life After Death?

Do Heaven And Hell Exist?

Does anyone know what happens after you die?

Where will you go after you die?

What will it be like?

Is it going to be good or bad?

I just can't tell how would be life after death but when I was at the funeral, the Father of the church said  
"We don't die but we move from one life to another life"

He also said - "Alive or Dead, we belong to God"

He was right with his words, whether we are alive or dead, we belong to God. I just want everyone who visit my blog, please pray for my friend's dad who is unfortunately no more a part of our life, but he will always be with us through his memories that he had with his family & friends. 

I just want everyone to pray for our near & dear ones who are still with us & for those who left us and went to God.

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU

First Love (Crush)

First love and first crush - two emotions (sometimes one) that one does not forget easily...it stays behind in a small space of our minds. Feeling such as pulse quickening, face becoming red like tomatoes, blushing when he/she looks at u, etc etc....cannot be forgotten easily...ever.

Everyone has gone through this same chaos of feelings sometime in their lives. I too had similar feelings when I first saw her. Feelings that are proudly disclosed if the same guy/girl is with them or else they are hided if they are with someone else.

Often first love (crush) tends to be unreasonable - feelings for someone who is just not right for you, feelings for someone who stands diametrically apart from you on everything - but first love (crush) is rarely forgotten. Its not something that one should dwell upon, ponder upon forever; its something that one should enjoy while it lasts and then recollect it much later in their lives, sometimes unexpectedly and rejoice in the feeling.

I just remembered my first love (crush),  She was in my school (won't be telling her name :D), she was my sweetest friend. This happened when I was in my primary school (2nd standard), she used to sit next to me & we used to have loads of fun all the time. Time went by & we grew up, we were together till our 4th standard but she went away after her father got transferred to some other place. She was my first love & my first crush. I can never forget those moments of my life...those were the best days of my life.

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Luv u all,
sHeHzU