Miss You :( :( :(

Post Dedicated to Someone who was really Special to me & will always remain Special.

It is not often that you meet someone who you think would interest you. Someone who could enchant you. Someone who could hold you in rapt attention. In fact, it is extremely rare to cross paths with such a beautiful mind. 

It's a weird feeling but some songs always prick me so bad. I was listening to the acoustic version of  "Sajni" few days back and it did remind me of someone who was very close to me. The song almost made me cry inside. I can never describe the helpless feeling that I get whenever I listen to it. I don't know why but I almost felt like the song was trying to give me a sign or a message that something's not right. Maybe or maybe not I should call that person up and try to apologize but then I'm scared. Life's too short for such egoistic mindsets anyway. We all do mistakes and screw ups but does that mean we should let our fear stop us from what we really want to do?

I always say in public that how I don't care and stuff. It's true! It's all true! And it also doesn't matter if you judge me based on what I scribble out here. Truth is I miss that person real bad. I'm just trying to figure out why :(. I tried too hard to forget and even move on but that's something I can't just let go of. I really need help.

Yeah, I do have new friends and a fresh new life but again that's not enough. My life still feels incomplete. I don't wanna wait for it to be complete or anything. I just really feel that close friend could be and really deserved to be a part of my life.

Why do all good things come to an end?
Why do we wreck things that are so perfect?

Whatever is it that I did, I was wrong. I am wrong. I will always be wrong until and unless I step up and apologize and bring back that person in my life. But... it's too late.

I want to say sorry to that someone. I am really sorry. I know sorry is not enough for anything that I did to hurt you. I beg your forgiveness for my frail moment. I'm sorry for hurting you. Just know that you're the best person ever. I lost many people in my life. I regret losing you the most. It was our fortune that made us cross paths. And I can only pray to Him to mould our destiny. 

Wherever you are, Whatever you doing...I just wanna wish you Luck & May God bless you & keep showering you with his blessings. Miss You :(

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Luv u all,

Happy Independence Day :)

"Long years ago we made a tryst with destiny, and now the time comes when we will redeem our pledge, not wholly or in full measure, but very substantially. At the stroke of the midnight hour, when the world sleeps, India will awake to life and freedom. A moment comes, which comes but rarely in history, when we step out from the old to the new, when an age ends and when the soul of a nation, long suppressed, finds utterance.... We end today a period of ill fortune, and India discovers herself again."

- Jawaharlal Nehru
(Speech on Indian Independence Day, 1947)

 Wishing all my blog readers a Very Happy India independence Day 2011.

Other might have forgotten,
But never can I,
The Flag of my country
Furls very high,
Happy Independence Day.

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Decisions !!!

 

I have been thinking quite a bit lately about giving up...I do this a lot, to be honest. I flip, I flop, Then I get back on my horse (Blogging).

Don't know if I want to get back on at this point. I really don't know what I want to do.  Why, Y do I have trouble making decisions sometimes? Minor, major, wotever decisions...

'Self-Peace' is important to help us overcome many of the challenges in our lives, including the simple, well...not so simple, process of making a decision, whether it be a minor or major decision...

I am sure there are numerous reasons for decision-making problems, but I felt this could be one of the reason to it.

Why can Decision-Making be so Hard?

I feel sometimes, making that decision means closing off other options. It may mean that other exciting goals have to be put to the side. Thus, with a decision - a way forwards is opened.....At the same time, another way is closed.

Life is a journey....step by step....each decision we make can be a small or large step within that journey. One decision can be a turning point in our lives ....Thus, what if we make the wrong decision!? Obviously, this can lead to fear and we can freeze down & then we start thinking was is the right decision or wrong decision???

So - I think that is one of the reasons why decision-making can be difficult - FEAR.

 - Fear of closing a door.
 - Fear that we may not be making the right decision.
 - Fear that we may not be able to change that decision if its the wrong one.

Our frequent companion in life - Fear. But we can't just stop taking decision if we always have this fear in our mind. Fear can be overcome - 'Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway' as they say. Who knows what's around the corner. Believe in yourself, trust your instincts, understand your fears and go forth ....! Have Courage ....Take courage, and make those decisions... :-)

Just a thot - If we can carry through on a decision made, act, and accomplish it, then perhaps, we can find the time to follow through on the other options, which were closed in that first decision process. A decision taken doesn't mean its the Final Decision, it's just a matter of finding some sort of balance.

Well, I didn't knew I wuld write such a long post about Decision making - I just planned to post a 'Picture' with 'Post Coming Soon...'. But once again, I have written more then what I had planned. One of 'off the top of my head' type post..well I guess my brain need some rest :p 

Sometimes we knowingly go and do that 1 stupid thing that we regret for the rest of our lives...But at that time when u are doing that thing u feel sooooo alive inside u....so go ahead keep taking decisions :)

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Lost

Fingers don't wanna move...pen don't wanna scribble...words don't wanna live and keypad is getting wayward......I feel I m Lost again.

I have been holding up so many things since last few months...and I think I need a good vacation too...aah but God only knows when the good day will dawn!!...

I have lost count of time, I have lost count of my age, I have lost count of my feelings, I have lost count of my needs, I have lost count of my urge to be with her, I have lost count of myself !!! In short I'm Lost....

I don't realize when sun shines, when dusk fells, when stars twinkles...life has become barren...I have no idea at all Y is it all happening...

There are moments in my life where I just wanna give up. Give up fighting to survive each day as a normal sane human being. I sit here typing out word after word when I really just want to smash up anything, everything. I want to scream, I want to hurt, physically, so maybe i'll forget about the emotional pain. I want to shout at all the people who have caused me pain, I want them to feel the pain they have inflicted.

People say, "You are working hard, but not smart!" To be honest to the statement... I’m not doing either of the said things...

What I aspire to be in life is already mauled in dust of my social needs...I have to be what I'm not just for the sake of pleasing fellow clays....I’m not liking bit of it.. Actually, to be true to myself...I never liked things when they go astray of my thoughts...

I like what I am...I like what I feel is too-ethical or non-ethical; I'm just lost...

Song for the moment:

Kabhi shaam dhale toh mere dil mein aa jaana
kabhi chand khile toh mere dil mein aa jaana
magar aana is tarah tum ke yahan se fir na jaana..!!

Somewhere down my throat I hum these verses, why? For whom? I don't know or I just pretend that I don't know? I really don't know Y???

I'm pretending! Each and every breath I take is an affectation and nothing more than that. I'm pretending to myself...How Strong I'm... I'm inflicting pain on my innocent and sensitive soul! I have no idea wot am I doing with my Life...I guess I just need a vacation...a Long Vacation to start life with a Fresh. Wot Say ???

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Luv u all.
sHeHzU