Another year comes to an end...

Today is the last day of 2012 -- Just sitting at home thinking what should one do on such a day? People have various ways to celebrate this last day of the year but I thought to have a look back at the year that has gone by -- anniversaries, special events, trips to new places, small pleasures at home and at work, with family, friends and colleagues, ...well...many memories of many events and experiences...almost all of them nice... therefore a day to say thank you to everyone who made it possible..

The one thing that stands out for me is that I have had some awesome and amazing people visit my life this year, leaving with me some wonderful times, some sad times, some deeply serious times and sometimes full of silliness and insanity.

Some have shown me things within myself I never knew, feelings I thought had died, hopes and dreams I still have yet to find and hopes and dreams that were but for a flash in the span of time. They have shown me things that have made me laugh so hard which sometime made me cry. Shown me things that hurt so bad the tears could not soothe the pain, leaving me to know that I am alive inside and my heart has not died.

Some revealed to me their lives and the things that fill their time. Some allowed me to join them on their path in time, enabling me to see that we really are all the same, no matter what the differences are between us in time and space. I am honored and humbled by sharing of myself with my blogger friends. Thank you for all the lessons of life you have shared with me in this brief span of time ...I will often visit the things we have shared here, and look forward to the things we have yet to share, moving along in the walk of time.

This year I have discovered how truly lucky I am to have family and friends who have supplied an incredible amount of support and comfort during my time of need. It is humbling to realize how much people care about you, and how much they are willing to do to help you. At the same time I felt nothing could be worse than the year this was….it really has been a hell of a year for me. I have learned a lot about myself, I lost my strength, my friends & couple of other things which was unexpected…but I learned that life has to carry on. I feel so touched, Life's like this. Unexpected sorrows, happiness that we plan, dreams and all. Still life goes on, and moving on with every kinda phase is life.

Here's wishing everyone luck in realizing their own dreams and hopes in the new year...rest in peace 2012, and welcome 2013. 

Just wanna Thanx all my blog readers & wish u all 

A Very Happy & Prosperous New Year.

 

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

 

In Loving Memory of My Father...

Some of you here may remember the blog I had written a year ago, my father had passed away on 3rd Oct'11 exactly a year ago, I'm not really sure what to say here, its so tough to write down my feelings in words, but I told myself when this happened I will post a blog on this day every year. Today is the one year anniversary of my father passing away.  My dad was always one of the most supportive parents you could ever ask for.

I am trying to write a post in his memories & make it seem beautiful but death isn't beautiful, so I would just write about the after affects when you loose your loved ones. It is a part of life to accept we are all here temporarily. I thought I would share some happy moments of our life before the Cancer came in and took away My Father. But I would rather not do that cause I still believe he is with us every day every moment.

Death of a loved one is the worst thing that can happen to anyone. It is synonymous with devastation. No matter what the cause is you will never be ready for it.

Nearly a year has passed since my Dad left us. As the anniversary approaches, my family members & friends may be thinking over the details of the weeks which lead up to that fateful day. At times it cripples me inside and make me feel as if part of me has died inside too. Trying to survive my day to day life but when the night breaks & when I reach home, I find myself all alone, Dad not there to ask how was your day or why are you late today???

Mom has been real stressed out because she doesn't have you around to discuss things. It upsets me sometimes to see her in the state she's in. You know how much Mom misses you. It's been a year and Mom still thinks of you every single day. Not just Mom but all your children misses you alot.

It's the first year death anniversary of my Dad and yet everything seems unreal. I can't totally digest the fact that he is gone for a year now. The first anniversary can be relieving but at the same time very painful because it reminded the day that I will never forget for the rest of my life. I have lost my Dad a year ago on the same day.

Memories....there are uncountable memories which can fill up a scrapbook & I would still need  extra papers to write them down. It's been a year since you're gone. Dad, you used to always call me whenever I was late or away from home, asking my whereabouts. I miss you now dad, why don't you call me? I want to tell you that I miss you a lot, I am on my way back home wait for me at the dinner and that you're the best father a boy could ever dream of.

When you lose your loved one specially a parent, it's never easy. It doesn't matter if that parent was sick or died out of the blue. It doesn't matter if you were close or if you hadn't spoken in years. You still lost the person that brought you into this world. They will never be in this life again.

Anyway, I better stop here now else I might go on forever.  I miss you DAD, and I love you to the farthest galaxy and back. I have fate in you and I'm so happy that at one point in our lives, our paths met as father and son.

Until we meet again, Dad (Abba). :) Take care. Luv U, Miss U :( 

PS. - I have a small request to all my readers to please remember my Dad & my Family members in your prayers. Thnx for your support.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

Nothing Lasts Forever !!!

 

A very old post which finally sees the light. I wrote this post almost a year back but I guess its time to share it with everyone cause I am feeling the same nowadays.

                                                Nothing Lasts Forever !!!

I always believed in the above saying but I always ignored it & made a big mistake. A lot happened in the last few days..things so unexpected that I never thought of even in my worst of dream..things so strange that I can’t even think of doing or facing ever in my life. But this is life..isn’t? Expect the unexpected..is what they say. True. Then why to even expect anything. But isn’t too much to ask for? To expect nothing. I was once a person always surrounded by people..not that I had to put any effort for that..but it was always like this. I never lived alone. I always had some person or the other to be by my side. Yes, that was a person I used to be. Always surrounded by people..a loud life…laughs…no worries..love..fun..everything. Yet, there was something that was missing. Something that always made me wondered what am I without these people…what will I do without them.

But, that thought was never permanent..it used to come and leave my mind the very next second. I was too confident to accept the fact that things will change…one day…some day. Time passed and things changed…not for good but for worst. Those people who once were my lifeline started finding their own ways.. ways which never coincide with mine. One by one they left..leaving me standing helpless..clueless.

Now…I was left with very few people around…so few that their count ends before the start. But..I was fine with it. At least I had someone..someone with whom I can share my woes with..someone whom I can call anytime..and they would listen to me. But I always missed that time. I talked about it..I wrote about it..but It never helped.

And then there came a time when I lost those ‘few’ people of mine. I lost the years long connection with them..they were the people I could have died for..and that was the last thing I wanted in my life to happen…to lose them..to lose my life. With few..I still talk…seldom. But things have changed…times have changed…I have changed…and they will never be the same..never.

I am a different person today..not that I don’t care for them…their happiness still brings happiness to me…their tears still makes my heart weep…I am always and always there for them..anytime they call me. But something inside me has changed…I am my own world now…I am my companion now..for I have understand the consequences of attachment…the after-effects of trust..the agony of being alone..all alone.

I see people of my age doing things ..going around..making efforts to look good. I don’t feel like doing any of those thing..this is just not me. I would love to read whole night than to party all night…I would love to sip my cappuccino in a café surrounded by strangers than to be with known-strangers.. It scares me sometime…this weird choice of mine. I do not feel connected with this world around. I don’t feel love inside me anymore…neither for myself, nor for anyone else.

May be this is just a phase or maybe I have become this way. But as they say..Nothing lasts forever. This too shall pass.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

Scribbled Thoughts...

 

Something has been tugging my heart for a long time now. A maelstrom of emotions and remembrances engulf me, and I keep tossing and turning in bed. Vague feelings, fears and uncertainties, keep encircling me the whole time. I wonder if its just the play of my Aries mind, or is more than that.

Someone at work noticed I am quieter than usual. At Home, I am irritated than usual (Feel awfully guilty about my behavior),  I can hardly connect to anybody these days too. I am so caught up in the crossfires between my thoughts, that making sense of things around, seems hard. Well..nothing is exactly out-of-place, yet something is consuming me.

Maybe I am bored, Maybe I need a Vacation, Maybe.... Considering my fleeting nature, I guess its time to change my path and move to a different road. I usually like roads that emerge out of nowhere. I like it when it bends, and I cannot see what lies ahead. That's me!

At times, I feel there are many 'ME' inside this 'I' that I am. And they all reside in small little compartments, waiting for their turn. When I please one ME, another throws tantrums. Its hard for me to feel completely fulfilled, because some part of ME, is always left yearning for attention.

The cacophony of everyday life, the confinements of society, the choking practicalities, its getting  too much. Aargh growing up sucks at times :-|

PS- I am too muddled to structure everything around too. Eh! Loose ends...everywhere :P

 

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

Back to Blogging

It has been long time, I have stopped scribbing my thoughts at this place on regular interval. The last post was way back on 5th Jan, celebrating my Blogiversary. Since then I haven't post anything. I am back...really, I am. Someone told me, "If you have a blog, then BLOG."

I stopped interacting with my blogger mates.

I stopped reading other fellow bloggers.

I stopped appreciating the good use of this platform.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

So I have waked up from the big slumber period of my life.

Going to interact with the old friends regularly.

Has already started scribbing new blog post on my notepad.

And will write here regularly.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

One Year Blogiversary

Today I have completed ONE YEAR of blogging – yes its my blog anniversary and I have completed a whooping one year. Yippie..!

So it is the time for celebration, my blog turns one today. The first post here was exactly one year ago, 5th January 2011. When I started this blog, I had little idea of what I wanted it to be. I didn’t have much experience in blogging.

I was confused, unsure as to what to name my blog. One year back, that was my main concern. I was starting out on a new venture and I did not have a name..! But as I mentioned in my first post a year back - Blog name credit goes to my Dear Friends - Regan, Nisha & Dimple (Thnx alot Ppl). Looking back that seems quite silly because at that moment I did not know what blogging actually involved. It was later when I started writing post, reading other blogger's blog, I realized that its a new world out there. I felt like I had stepped into a new dimension, a new unknown world, and I was filled with apprehension and self doubt.

When I started my blogging journey, nobody commented, nobody was reading and it was pretty frustrating time. Now, I’m really happy to have a small community of people who encourage me by commenting regularly and sharing my posts.

Looking after the blog over the past year has been a great experience, and after writing about 61 posts (that is not a big number, hopefully there will be more posts this year), I have learnt a lot. I hope you’ve enjoyed it, but remember that I always welcome your feedback.

 

What one year of blogging gave me?

I have improved my writing skills (I think so :p). I still wouldn’t call myself a good writer, but it is much better than what I had a year ago.

So what’s next?

The first year of blogging was a learning experience for me. I tried many things, did mistakes, learned alot. The coming year will be a year of consolidation, I am going to apply what I learned and will try to take this blog to the next level.

Try & Increase the number of posts.

As you can see that I have wrote only 61 posts so far in this blog (which is not bad :p). I definitely need to work more on this.

During the year, I went through a lot of ups and downs, highs and lows but I never stopped blogging. I am so happy with the successes and the growth of the blog so far, but I am not going to be contented and stop ever.

Let me say a BIG THANKS to all my readers who visited, read my posts, commented, sent me emails, joined my network, subscribed to my posts. It has been an exciting journey and without your support it won’t be possible. Thank you very much to all for supporting me as well as my blog.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

Happy New Year 2012

Heylo Everyone,

New year is the time to forget every bad memory of the past year and start your life afresh. So, get up and hug a friend with whom you had a fight lately, get up and hug you parents and promise them you will not hurt them anymore, give a self hug and promise to yourself that come what may you would remain truthful to yourself, hug a poor kid and tell her that she is not alone, Help the needy and abolish the greedy from your life. So, just forget all your grudges and send these wonderful new year wishes to your loved ones.

Here’s wishing you all the success, prosperity, joy and celebration for 2012 and beyond. May the yer 2012 brings all greats, loads of love, happiness, and ample of opportunities of growth and survival.

"Happy New Year" is the greeting that is shared and exchanged by all at the advent of a new year.New Year is a time when people get into the perfect mood of celebration. From attending grand shows at nightclubs to night long partying at a friend's place, it's only fun and merry making. People from all over the world welcome New Year in their own special way. 

God bless you and keep you safe not only today but throughout life that is coming in your way. May year to follow be among the best you have ever spent.

Years come n go, but this year I specially wish 4 u a double dose of health n happiness topped with loads of good fortune. Have a gr8 year ahead! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

This new year may your monthly salary come in six figures,

may you take your special ones for a ride on your private yacht and may all your illusions fade away. Cheers.

I am sending you a gift packed with Sincerity,

sealed with love and engulfed in care. Bless you. Happy New Year.

Keep the smile, leave the tears.

Think of Joy and forget your fears.

Here I am wishing you a very happy new year.

Whenever new year comes all my saved up wishes start coming out

And I am glad that you are there to receive them. Happy New Year 2012.

Wish you a prosperous, blissful, awesome,

peppy and cheerful new year. Have a blast. Cheers!!

May you have a heart of courage,

a mind of will and may you get whatever you desire always at you will. Happy New Year.

May The Year 2012 Bring for You….

Happiness,Success and filled with Peace,Hope & Togetherness of your Family & Friends….Wishing You a… Happy New Year

New is the year, new are the hopes and the aspirations,

New is the resolution, new are the spirits and

Forever my warm wishes are for u.

Have a promising and fulfilling new year.

Before the golden sun sets,

old calender is destroyed,

And mobile networks get jammed,

I wish in new year every moment is enjoyed

Year’s end is neither an end

nor a beginning

but a going on,

with all the wisdom

that experience

can instill in us.

Happy New Year.

Just wanna Thanx all my blog readers & wish u all 

A Very Happy & Prosperous New Year

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

Merry Christmas

 

May the JOY of Christmas fill your heart with happiness today
May the HOPE of Christmas light your path and guide you on your way
May the PROMISE of Christmas help to show God's boundless love for you
May the blessings of Christmas fill your heart now and forever...

I wish all my readers a Very Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

My First Nephew

 

My First Nephew ~ Mohammed Hamza

Born on November 20th (2011) ~ 10.30am ~ 2.5 kg (approx 5 pounds) ~ 20 inches long ~ Super cute.

The wait for my first nephew was long...very long almost 26 years :) 

But the wait is over now.

Allow me a moment for expressing my unrestrained pride. I have a new little nephew, Mohammaed Hamza – nearly Four weeks old. My brother's first born child, my first nephew, the first baby in the family after 26 years. He is so amazing. His skin so smooth to touch, with a very fine hair, and yawns which is unforgettable. Every time he cries, you feel like your heart is being torn with the pain that you hear from his voice. Everybody adores him so much. Cute face, Bright-eyed, Chubby cheeks, Rosy lips & above all he has the best smile I have ever seen. I too have few nephews & niece but they are all from my sister's side, this one is the first from my brother side. I just can't express my happiness in words.

He is black-haired and jovial, like his father, He shows signs of great intelligence, like his Uncle (That's Me :P), and is quite fond of an afternoon nap, like his mother. But what most captivates me about him is "What he keeps thinking when he keep gazing on all things around him & what would he be thinking in his own world".

He is so little, But whenever I carry him I fell he is much bigger than I think. My new born and first nephew, it felt so good when I carried him for the first time at the hospital. I felt like crying but I didn’t. I finally know how it feels to be an uncle. I have to look out for him and take care of him. I try to help my sister-in-law sometimes to change his diaper and I play around with him and make him laugh or vice-verse.

I am grateful to my Brother and my sister-in-law for giving me such a wonderful gift of my life after my dad sad demise which was few months back. I am thankful to God as well for showering his love & care on our family by sending an angel in our family. I wish Dad was here with us, he would be the Happiest person in our family, having such a wonderful grand-son. Since the day he is born, I try my best to spend most of my free time with him, I feel this sense of peace, beauty, connection and magic. It doesn’t matter if he is screeching in my ear or being the happiest baby in the world. His presence will always remind me of hope. Hope of getting something after loosing something.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

G.D. - An Unforgattable Friend

Myself & Gulam

It was almost a week since I lost my Dad. I never expected such a thing to happen so sudden. It was the Sunday evening when I received the call from my friend. I was having my regular coffee with my college friends when suddenly I saw by fone vibrating which said Zia Calling. I wondered why he was calling me cause he hardly calls me up on a Sunday. Actually, he was supposed to be busy with his college friends for the upcoming freshers party which was been organized by them. I thought he would be calling up to ask me if everything was fine at my house cause last Monday I had lost my dad. Sadly, he was calling to give me another sad news which was a shock to me. He said that our common school friend "Gulam Dastagir Ansari", the only child of his parents, the only brother to his five sisters, had passed away in an accident. The accident took place at a Dam near Kohlad, some place between Mumbai-Goa Highway.

I was shaken at that point of time, didn't knew how to react. I got up from there & left the place to meet Zia to confirm the news he just gave me. While heading to his place I was hoping it to be a rumor. But when I reached his place, he confirmed the news. The accident did occur but we all didn't knew how it occurred. We both were in shock so we decided to call all our friends & spread the sad news. At first no one was ready to believe us but later we told everyone that its a fact & we all have to accept it. I called up all my friends so that we all can go and visit Gulam's family members & give them support & condolences. It was a very tough time for all of us cause we all were still in a shock & giving condolence to his family was very difficult for us.

When we came down from his house after giving condolence, we tried to find out the real reason - How & When did all this happen. People had different stories to tell but we all were waiting for the real story. The story goes somewhat like this (as told by Tausif (Gulam's College Friend). Gulam and his three other friends decided to visit one of his College friend Shehbaz's residence @ Kohlad. They all left from Gulam's place at around 11pm on Saturday night on two bikes. Four friends who planned it out were Gulam, Junaid, Shehbaz & Tausif (all college friends). They left from here & halted at some dhaba on their way to Kohlad for dinner. They reach Kohlad early morning around 4am & they went to sleep. They got up in the afternoon had their breakfast & lunch & decided to have a shower @ the nearby Dam. Shehbaz who was not well decided to stay out of water so he didn't join them. The dam water was flowing from a height & they were at the corner. The place where they decided to have a bath was flooded till knee height, so Tauseef went ahead a little to swim in d deeper area of the dam. Gulam & Junaid were heading ahead inside the place where there was knee height water but they didn't knew there was a broken wall at the side & it was very deep. Gulam was ahead just few steps from Junaid. Gulam lost his balance & went inside the hole, seeing this Junaid tried to get hold of Gulam but they say there was a swirl inside the hole & Gulam was caught inside it. Seeing this Tauseef came to save him, he tried pushing him from below but Gulam was not able to get out of the swirl & during that time Junaid also got caught inside the swirl. Shehbaz who was outside tried to get hold of them but they were already lost inside the water. Shehbaz got unconscious & he was lying at the corner.

Tauseef tried to call for help but he said no one was there to help them. In the meantime Gulam & Junaid were no where to be seen inside the water. After sometime few people came to help them but it took them 2 hours to search them. They finally found Gulam's body & then Junaid's body. This is wot Shehbaz & Tauseef told us. 

Death literally can happen in the blink of an eye.

A promising young life was over. We not only loose one friend but we lost two friends that day. I don't know much about Junaid, the other friend who passed away that day. My friend was smart, caring, humble, ready to help & always there whenever we needed him. He was always courteous and always inquired as to how I was doing & how all his friends doing in their perspective lives. He was a gift to all friends & specially to his Parents & Sisters. I know he made his parents, sisters, relatives, friends & everyone around him proud by his caring nature.

One picnic changed it all. It cost him, it cost his parents, it cost his family, it cost his friends, and it cost innumerable others as well. He lost his life, a life of innumerable promises. Thankfully, I do not think he suffered at the end. Her parents lost their only child. Her extended family lost a cousin and a niece. Her friends lost a classmate. Others of us have been affected as well by his death.

I remained saddened by this death and many promises that went with it. It is hard to reconcile such a loss. However, as time goes on, I grieve less for the deceased. Now, I grieve for my friend. I have lost him. I'm not angry with him that he didn't inform me before leaving this world but I am just sad. Not sad for myself because of the distance of a friend but sad that my friend is distant from so many things. I just keep telling myself that time will help.

It seems like we just met yesterday had hell lots of fun & he is gone for a short vacation & will be returning soon. I wish it is just a dream & he would come back and wake me up. We all friends could go for a picnic & enjoy to core. I wish...

I pray every minute for his family members. May God give them courage to over come this difficult time.

Life keep teaching us some lessons everyday. This one is full of them. You owe it to the people that love you and love your family. A senseless death creates a great deal of collateral damage. Lesson number two - love your family and your friends, you never know when they might be gone or when you might be gone. Finally, be there in whatever way you are allowed when someone suffers a loss, particularly the loss of a child. I can't say that I know how my friend's family members feels but I hope he knows, I & all his friends will always be there to support his family in all conditions.

I'm gonna miss you, my friend. I'm gonna miss the late night gatherings, the way you listened to me so patiently. You taught me so many things that I will never forget. You taught me to relax, and enjoy the moment, and that there is nothing more important than family. I am going to have so many fond memories of you. I will cherish the good memories, And I hope to learn from the bad ones. I miss you my friend, surely that you know, more then I show. May your soul rest in peace...Ameen

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

My Beloved Dad

I lost my Dad on 3rd of October'11 due to prostrate cancer. I miss him so much, more and more everyday. My Dad was the best man I knew. He and I got along great, and he always listened to whatever I said. He never judged me. I so wanna be like him, and I am so proud to be his son. Dad, I miss you more than words can ever say. There is not a moment that goes by that I don't think about you. I would give anything to have you back. I cant believe I have to go through life without you.

"Dad, I really miss you. I love you. I know that we had a good relationship, and I know that you knew how I loved you. I just wish that I told you more often."

As a child we were told by our elders that there is world beyond the one we live in and that those who leave the world look at us, smilingly, from skies. Today, I want to believe that this is indeed true. I also hope that by now you are in Heaven & looking down at us with a smile. 

How cruel is life? Why is it that people whom you love so much walk away from your life in single stroke? You told me not to cry and to be brave. I want to tell you that I failed you…I cried a lot the day I lost you & I always cry when I don't find you around me when I need you. I cannot think of my life without you. Please come back dear dad!

Some people said that you left us cause God wanted you back for him but I need you more than him. There is nothing for me to celebrate…I am desperate. I will do anything to bring you back. I was being very brave all the while you were unwell. I smiled and worked while I cried from within all the time. I am crying while I am writing this to you. Have I become a weakling overnight? And everybody in the family thinks that this youngest son is the bravest one. I want to ask them to shut up for burdening me with this “tough” image. I want to howl and cry and cry. It is okay if I am weak. I am human. I want no medal for being a tough one. Please come back dear dad…

The time after you were operated, I had been sitting on your bedside, while you struggled with life. I watched as you were drugged by doctors and nurses. I know how much you hated it. I would get angry at you for having self-control and bear pain even when ill. Dad, I cried every time they gave you another injection and you would just grimace. I wanted you to shout at them and ask them to stop playing around with your body. But all you will do is bear the pain. You had grown so weak. I know how much you hated being dependent on others. I hated them for abusing your body like this. You went in pain. You went without saying goodbye to anyone of us. You never woke up from surgery. We should have never agreed for your surgery. For that might have meant few more days of your presence amongst us. Please forgive us for agreeing for this surgery. You taught us never to be greedy about anything in life. You were wrong. I want to somehow get few more days of you. I promise I will spend each and every day with you. Please come back dear dad….

Please come back dear dad…just for few more days. I feel that I did not get enough of you. Just come back to see your grand son/daughter who is waiting to arrive in this world very soon. What will I tell him/her if they ask me about you? Mom is all alone, she tries to hide her tears in front of us so that we can be strong to accept that you left us and went far away but deep down she really needs you..Please come back Dad.

It has almost been 40 days since you have left us. Your battle with cancer was hard at the end and I am so glad you do not hurt anymore. I was so glad I could care for you the day you got operated, I hope I didn't hurt you. I was sad I couldn't speak a word with you that early morning on October 3rd, 2011 when you passed away so peacefully. Please be with me dad because I know you will always live through me. I hate that you will never walk me down the aisle or see your future grandchildren, but I will continue to make you proud of me and live a brave honorable life as you always taught us to do. I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you, Thank you for everything dad. May your soul rest in Peace....Ameen.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

 

 

Expectations

 

Expectation is not a bad thing et al... but what makes it not so desirable thing in a relationship is that there is a less possibility of it turning up true! 

- Anonymous Author

Isn't that what keep us going on? We have certain expectations from ourselves, our families, our loved ones...and we keep on multiplying them every time one of them gets fulfilled.

What's better? The satisfaction of being able to expect or the dissatisfaction every time we are let down? Don't we all have some amount of melancholy as a staple diet? Isn't there always something in life that we are not happy about...It is true that we all aim for perfection or contentment maybe..

Expectation is the perfect ground for Disappointment.

Emotions are complex...they always are...we try so hard to decipher our feelings...realize our aims...describe our relationships...are there enough words in the English dictionary to describe the myriad emotions we experience?? Or is that we settle on words because of the satisfaction that we get when it has a name...

Being possessive is good if kept as a cuddled thing in relationship not a raw material for jealousy and hate.

I hope that this post would help us talk more about this subject and people try to acknowledge the fact that having lower expectation some times is good as it always have a element of surprise to stumble upon..!!!

Lastly...Thanks for not having enough expectations from me time to time :)

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

Miss You :( :( :(

Post Dedicated to Someone who was really Special to me & will always remain Special.

It is not often that you meet someone who you think would interest you. Someone who could enchant you. Someone who could hold you in rapt attention. In fact, it is extremely rare to cross paths with such a beautiful mind. 

It's a weird feeling but some songs always prick me so bad. I was listening to the acoustic version of  "Sajni" few days back and it did remind me of someone who was very close to me. The song almost made me cry inside. I can never describe the helpless feeling that I get whenever I listen to it. I don't know why but I almost felt like the song was trying to give me a sign or a message that something's not right. Maybe or maybe not I should call that person up and try to apologize but then I'm scared. Life's too short for such egoistic mindsets anyway. We all do mistakes and screw ups but does that mean we should let our fear stop us from what we really want to do?

I always say in public that how I don't care and stuff. It's true! It's all true! And it also doesn't matter if you judge me based on what I scribble out here. Truth is I miss that person real bad. I'm just trying to figure out why :(. I tried too hard to forget and even move on but that's something I can't just let go of. I really need help.

Yeah, I do have new friends and a fresh new life but again that's not enough. My life still feels incomplete. I don't wanna wait for it to be complete or anything. I just really feel that close friend could be and really deserved to be a part of my life.

Why do all good things come to an end?
Why do we wreck things that are so perfect?

Whatever is it that I did, I was wrong. I am wrong. I will always be wrong until and unless I step up and apologize and bring back that person in my life. But... it's too late.

I want to say sorry to that someone. I am really sorry. I know sorry is not enough for anything that I did to hurt you. I beg your forgiveness for my frail moment. I'm sorry for hurting you. Just know that you're the best person ever. I lost many people in my life. I regret losing you the most. It was our fortune that made us cross paths. And I can only pray to Him to mould our destiny. 

Wherever you are, Whatever you doing...I just wanna wish you Luck & May God bless you & keep showering you with his blessings. Miss You :(

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,

Happy Independence Day :)

"Long years ago we made a tryst with destiny, and now the time comes when we will redeem our pledge, not wholly or in full measure, but very substantially. At the stroke of the midnight hour, when the world sleeps, India will awake to life and freedom. A moment comes, which comes but rarely in history, when we step out from the old to the new, when an age ends and when the soul of a nation, long suppressed, finds utterance.... We end today a period of ill fortune, and India discovers herself again."

- Jawaharlal Nehru
(Speech on Indian Independence Day, 1947)

 Wishing all my blog readers a Very Happy India independence Day 2011.

Other might have forgotten,
But never can I,
The Flag of my country
Furls very high,
Happy Independence Day.

Keep reading, commenting, enjoying & cheering your Life.

Luv u all,